Looking back

(CAA)

It's not quite over yet, but it is too late to reach some major goals or improve anything serious, so let’s make a review and plans for future. My big goals for this year were four. Going to the dentist – done. It was not bad at all; I’m actually planning to book my next exam. Stop overeating – successfully accomplished. I mean, situation is not ideal, I still do that sometimes, but I’m happy. My last period of binge eating was two months ago and I manage to lose some weight and get some healthy habits. Ok this was positive part, the next one is not overly negative, but partly successful I would say. Driving a car – I did some driving, but I’m far away from being comfortable behind the wheel. I made small step forward which is a good starting point for future, but there’s still a lot of work to do. I haven’t tried enough, it is much easier just so stay away from the car and hide from the problem. The last goal was to read a book called ˝Four sisters˝ - I haven’t even touched it this year. I read some other books, but none to the finish. Shame on me! So, the last two goals, I should repeat in next year.

Let’s focus on other positive things that I’m proud of. I experienced less ˝anxiety˝ attacks. I put that between dictates, because I don’t have official diagnose for this, I just call my psychically super uncomfortable moments (#kikigetsstrange) like that. I survived my annual blood test, flew with an airplane for the first time and said goodbye to my beloved pet. Are you laughing yet? There were also some emotional roller coasters that I’m ashamed to mention. Thankfully, my boyfriend still likes me :D

I was not superior blogger, but I tried. I won’t make myself to write. I write, when I feel to, it is not my job, but my hobby, so I want to enjoy in whole process. In near future I would like to visually change my blog a bit and improve overall quality of my posts.

Next year should be a year of reading because I’ve got some books that are waiting for me for quite a long time. I enjoy buying books (fragrances, makeup, clothes, nail polish…) and get overly excited about them in the store, but then I just sadly leave them on my shelf and waiting for the right moment to read them. And that moment never comes, you know. Yes I should reduce my shopping and limit myself, especially in fragrance and makeup department. Stuff will get expired or bad before I get a chance to use them. I buy things, because they make me happy, but that happiness lasts for a very short period of time. Then I need more and this circle never ends. Sounds familiar?

One day I would like to have more ˝grown up˝ job with some responsibilities.  In the next year I’m planning to get my Oxford English certificate and special public administrative exam. Maybe this will help a little to my job applications.

My big wish is to eat as clean as possible and get in better shape. I made step forward, but I want something more. I would like to spend some more time with my friends, because I miss them. I feel like I’m not trying enough with my boyfriend. I would like to be more flexible and listen to his needs.

The big year is comming; I’ll be 30 in May. I’m taking this as motivation to try more and work harder.

Ok this post got way too long. In 2018 I want to stay healthy, happy and surrounded with all people that I love.