Birthday blues


On May 4th I celebrated my 30th birthday. I must say I felt slightly depressed in weeks before and very nervous about my ˝party˝ at work. It’s a custom to bring some food at the office when celebrating you birthday, especially for so called milestone birthdays. At the end everything went just fine and smooth and I was happy with my big day. My worries were unnecessary as usual.

I don’t feel different now, I’m just joking about my age more often. My boyfriend is a bit younger than me, so I sometimes call myself old lady. Hey, but I’m also more experienced, right? J

My Facebook wall was almost clear (I think 7 people from 104 wrote me), what looks kind of sad, but doesn’t really affect me. I’m not popular person with big circle of people around me, but I know who my true friends are.

Tomorrow, whole 15 days later, because I wanted all to be there and this was first available Saturday, I will celebrate with my friends. I planned this day like it was my wedding. I just got carried away. Not with food or something special, but only with my outfit. I wanted all white blouse with lace and I was on a mission to find it. It had to be special and perfect, I become ˝blousezilla˝, just stupid how many energy went into that. I felt a pressure to look perfect. Not girly and boring, but elegant and age appropriate. Look at me, I’m 30 and I look better than ever kind of outfit. Thankfully that passed, when I found my blouse and I was able to carry on with my normal life. At the end I will chose my favorite makeup and accessories to complete my look and feel comfortable in my skin. I stopped trying to much and worry what others will think about me. After all, it is my day and I am the one who should be celebrated, although I hate being in the centre of attention.

So I’m excited about my birthday dinner tomorrow and looking forward to see my friends after a long time. Another big thing is tomorrow – it’s a royal’s wedding day. To be honest I don’t like Meghan Markel as much as I like Kate Middleton, but I enjoy watching these ceremonial things. Of course I’m curious about her dress and also what will other royals and celebrity wear. It’s a big event for royal watchers, so I hope I’ll be able to see in broadcast, because my boyfriend hates everything princesses related.  


(descomplica.com)


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